What Hurts the Most by Shannon Smith

What hurts the most,
Is forgetting why I let you go,
But just remembering the night you left,
And knowing you're not coming back.
It's been forever since we've last spoken,
And I've only been sitting around and hoping,
That maybe one day we could go back and change history,
Make things the way it used to be.
I miss all the laughs, the smiles, and games,
But it's all just a faded memory I'm being forced to wash away.
I was a jerk, a bitch, a whore,
And I'm sorry,
Now I'm just a lonely, upset, girl waiting for something more.
People do stupid things and we know it's for no reason,
But every day trying to move on feels like a whole different season..
You were great, a group of souls no one can ever replace,
I didn't want to say goodbye,
Even though I knew you were done with my lies.
The lesson's learned, and I know you'll never return,
But in my mind I still wait
For the day to come when I'll awake-
I'm wishing this is all a dream,
And then maybe you'll remember the real me.

I'll Walk Away by Shannon Smith

Not gonna be the same without you here,
I'd do anything to bring you near.
Just to see you one last time,
Just thinking about you brings a tear to my eye.
Can't get over it,
Can't move on,
There's no reason you should be gone.
Lost a life too short to live,
Now you're going upstairs to look down from heaven.
I promised I'd be good,
Although I've always been misunderstood.
A purposeless act,
That made such a huge impact
Can't go without revenge,
And I promise you'll be avenged.
Life can do terrible things,
So if I ever get another chance to fall in love,
I promise I'll walk away,
Walk away,
Walk away.
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IloveyouIhateyou by Shannon Smith

     I love you. Why can't you love me back? You're my whole world. You always have been.
     I hate you. You left me to be alone, which is where I stand now, when you know I need someone, anyone really. Where'd you go?
     I love you. I can't say those three words enough... Or maybe I should stop wasting my breath, because I know you don't feel the same way.
     I hate you. I know you hate me too, and that's okay. Or maybe it's not. I never thought I'd live to see the day we'd say goodbye...
     I love you. You have a hypnotizing affect on people, you let us all down but we still love you. And we don't know why.
     I hate you. Why can't I let you leave my head? Get out, go away... I don't like you anymore.
     I love you. Your warm false brown eyes get me every time. I still haven't let go. Just thinking about you puts a smile on my face.
     I hate you. You abandoned me. You try to tell me you don't hate me, but I know deep down you've got everyone fooled. But not me.
     I miss you. Please come home, love. You're gonna hurt me again, but I've got my arms wide open.
     I miss you.

Hurry Up and Save Me by Shannon Smith

How deep will I have to cut,
To show you I have a problem?
How soon will I have to leave,
To show you I can't move on?
Looking back at the shit that you do,
And everything you've put me through,
I've come to realize
This just isn't working.
So I'll meet you in hell,
Cause I never got help,
Then maybe we can work this out.
All I ever wanted to know,
Was if you truly loved me so.
Now I'll sit here, crying,
So maybe someone'll hear my whining,
And you'll finally realize
You need to stop lying.
Here in the corner,
My blade arm gets even sorer.
You've left me bleeding on the floor,
Cause I can't live like this any more.
My heart's breaking,
My soul's crying,
And even though I'm smiling,
On the inside
I'm quickly dying.

What Have I Done? by Shannon Smith

What have I done,
To the boy wearing #71?
Have I affected him,
Or is it a problem with myself?
It could be both,
But more likely the second...
Never want to say goodbye,
Wish we could last forever,
Never have to sever.
But wishes don't come true,
Everyone knows that.
You might know what to do,
But you're really just a fool.
I want to give up,
I want to go home,
But some part of me,
Just won't let go.
Love like this doesn't come often,
I wish I could say more,
But now I feel like
I'm putting on the final nail
Of my coffin door.
I've had my ups & downs,
You've been there through them all.
Now my faith in you is shaking,
And my judgement's becoming hazy.
You're like a drug;
Calling me closer,
Making me want more...
But when you're gone,
The aftermath's worse than this deadly war.
The war going on between my head and my heart,
The war that's driving us apart.
One side's going to win,
Going to be able to go on with their life,
But one side will lose,
I don't think it'll be you,
So now I'm saying I'm sorry.

Feel the Burn by Shannon Smith

Forget the liar,
That started this fire;
The one that took everything dear to you.
You find a match,
Which makes a flame...
A flame that'll take all the blame.
Blame wrongfully put on you,
The one who never had a clue.
It burns, It hurts...
But it feels better,
Because the cuts never worked.
Cuts never seemed to be deep enough,
And when it failed,
Things only got rough.
If you said goodbye today,
No one would have to worry about tomorrow.
What a fail,
Just remove the veil,
And join the dead instead.
The flame burns slowly but surely,
Damage has been done,
And now nothing's fun.
Not that it was to begin with,
But now it's gone.
Everything fades to black,
Sorry honey there's no going back,
You've lost your mind,
So enjoy the burn
And let everything slip away
Like it was yesterday.
You've lived your only life,
But you thought you'd get it twice.
Well dreams never come true,
So strike the match again and wish you never fell,
Because now you're going to hell.

Crashing Down by Shannon Smith

Just one more night,
For one last fight,
To find out
Who I am
All over again...
One last fight
To found out
What's going on in my head
Right now...
I've done things
You'll never know
And I've said things
You'd never imagine
Coming from me.
Now everyone's after just a girl
Lost in her own world,
Can't tell right from wrong,
Or up from down...
Wanna end all the pain?
Let's do it tonight,
It's alright,
To come crashing down.